Milling Around Mullion

Slept in this morning, had a breakfast scramble made with coded eggs (each one individually stamped like a Sunkist orange), and spent much of the day arranging plans for tours around the area--making phone calls, rifling through brochures, and trying to coordinate bus times. I'm glad the dining table at the cabin is big.

Buses are good here, but gauging the schedules based on holidays, Sundays, Saturdays-only, not-on-schooldays, and only-on-schooldays travel can be confusing.
I tried hard to arrange a way to see a performance at Minack, an amphitheatre built right into the Cornwall cliffs, but the trip requires three buses that don't make the right connections, so I finally bagged it.


The rest of the day was relaxing--mostly meandering around the village. I stopped to inspect a blue silk bag hanging from an iron hook in someone's driveway. Inside was a thin gold necklace with a gemstone charm. Either it's an alternative to the Royal Mail or the Mullion form of lost and found. It had been claimed later in the day.


A handsome garden gate indicated the former site of Lloyds Bank in Mullion. The building looks like it's now a private home. "Will you be sleeping in the vault tonight, dear?"



I ate a picnic lunch at a pocket park called Mullion Garden. I was careful to keep my food away from an overly interested gull that had stopped for a drink in the water fountain.


The garden is near St. Mellanus Church, a small place with a ca. 1420 start; the current building is dated 1691. Most of the tombstones in the tiny cemetery date from the 1800s.

My dose of social interaction today came in the form of an art class at the WI Mullion (Womens Institute of Mullion). It wasn't a class, exactly, as the teacher was out for the day "visiting a hospital," as one of the participants explained. The students were all women in their 60s or older. They meet once a week, every Wednesday 2-4, to paint and chat. Cost is a 50p donation per session, which they collect and give to the teacher at Christmas. They stop halfway through for biscuits and tea and warmly welcomed me as a drop-in.


I’m carrying only a small selection of 12 colored pencils, but did the best I could on some hedgerow flowers I had picked to sketch. I had no pink, and that seems to be the color of early June here. It was fun to take time out to draw, especially among other women who enjoyed painting. I think I'll buy a small box of watercolors to use sometime on the trip. These are more versatile since I can create the colors I need.





Everyone is flying the red-on-white Cross of St George flag to root for England football--the World Cup competition is over the next few weeks, and football fever (and its commensurate product marketing) is noticeable everywhere. It's like a Superbowl times ten. The games are hosted in Germany this year. England plays Germany Saturday; I plan to watch even though I know little about the sport right now.

Ate dinner at the cabin--a homemade stir fry of chicken, peas, onion, tomato, and fresh peach, washed down with a Doombar beer, a locally made ale endorsed by the St. Mellanus vicar. He happens to be relocating to Australia in a month. Maybe the beer is better there.

Lazing the SWC Path to Lizard

With its miles of coastline, Cornwall has many sections that are prime surfing regions for England, and Lizard Peninsula, where I’m staying, is home to many water-loving Brits. I was reminded of this on my walk to the grocer this morning, early enough to catch the mail being delivered. This part of the world doesn't use a typical “Royal Mail” red van and starchly uniformed postperson. Here mail is delivered via bicycle--a Royal Mail red bicycle--by a tanned, blond surfer dude wearing shorts and a red Royal Mail T-shirt. He climbs off the bike and walks up to each house with his bundle of mail.

Today began as a setup day--washed my jammies in the bathroom sink and draped them over a hydrangea to dry; shopped for a week’s worth of groceries--eggs, muesli, milk, jam, bread, butter, chicken, peas, fresh vegetables; scoped out the layout of Mullion village, pubs, shops, galleries, etc.

After a nap, I armed myself with trekking poles, Snickers bar, apple, and water and headed out at 3:15 for a walk south on the Southwest Coast (SWC) path, just to see what it was like. I kept stopping for photos, it was all so beautiful and interesting. New coves every half mile, meadow flowers blowing in the wind, changes in the trail, stiles to clamor over, gulls to watch dive over the cliffs.








I was about an hour and a quarter out when I paused to photograph a woman in red coming down one of the hills. When we passed to say hello, she said, "Who'd have thought we'd be meeting again this way?"

I looked more closely. It was Manuela from Carthvean Farm! She was walking north from Lizard. We exchanged notes about distances from our starting points. She had hopped a bus to Lizard and had spent about two hours, plus lunch break, to get to where we were. She gave me the return bus times from Lizard, and I decided to continue walking until I reached that village at the end of the peninsula, then bus back. We figured it was about four miles, corroborated by a mile marker I found a few minutes later.



Manuela had an Ordnance map of the region--the closeup, 25,000-scale version that shows practically every boulder on a trail. I wondered whether I was stupid to be heading out without a map, too, then decided that it was unlikely that I’d get lost on this path. Keep the Atlantic on my right, and even I couldn’t go wrong.

She mentioned that the route from Lizard wasn’t too hilly, mostly flat. She hadn’t, however, warned me about the group of highland cows that were waiting in one of the several gullies I would go down and up on the way. They have a lovely caramel coloring and horns like a Texas longhorn steer. One was an older calf. I'd already seen warnings posted to beware of cattle, especially those that had babies. I swallowed my nerves, said hello, and they let me pass through their little group about 15 feet from them.


The day continued to be scorching hot (I’m getting a serious tan on this trip), and I was happy to reach Kynance Cove, a beach on the trail just outside Lizard. The tide was coming in, and the coastline had been reduced from sand to an expanse of black rocks piled at the base of the cliffs. Ocean waves broke over the boulders and swept between a corridor of stone onto the only spit of sand still left. I stripped off my boots and socks to wade into the water. Ah, icy cold. Yow, my feet were numb within a minute. I took a video of the waves coming through the corridor. They made a great slapping sound with each advance.

When I got to Lizard village, a bus was waiting--the 7:04, and I'd arrived at 7:01. Perfect timing. I skipped a fish and chips dinner in Lizard and took the ride back to Mullion. What had taken me took me three-plus hours to walk took about 10 minutes by bus.

I stopped for dinner at The Mounts Bay pub--local ale and local fish pie. The pies here don’t have a crust per se--they’re served in baking dishes--but it was delicious. Dill and cream sauce, salmon, shrimp, crab, sliced potatoes. Over the rooftops I could view the Atlantic. It feels odd to see the Atlantic from this side--to me it's the “wrong” side; to UK it's the “right” side--sort of like what Tim and I each call the “front” and “back” of Mt. Hood--he lives to the south of the mountain, and I live to the north. I suppose it’s all in the perspective.

Church bells rang in the distance as I ate--the happy bells that peal around 7:45 and go for half an hour. I think it's the same melody as I recorded at St Clements in London. Next to me a family of a mum and three early teens share the sunshine over their meal. Sunset is still about one and a half hours away, and I’m feeling proud of my journey today, perfectly content to be right here, right now.

WWOOFs, Bleats, and a Sneaky Seagull

At the close of the TTEAM week, I traveled the three hours to Cornwall with Julie to her farm outside Helston. Julie had offered to have me stay Sunday night at her home with her husband, Andrew, a buddhist cleric. I've booked a self-catering cabin in Mullion, about nine miles south of Helston, starting tomorrow.

We drove across Devon and then Cornwall in her Mercedes caravan, a self-contained camper van, with her terrior, Henry, and her terrior/yorkie mix, Megan. Megan sat in my lap almost the whole time. Andrew had supper waiting--homemade garlic pizza with vegetables from their garden and the goat cheese they make from their goats' milk.


Andrew and Julie have a 70-acre landholding called Carthvean ("small holding") that was all field seven years ago and is now gardens and pastures and woods (they've planted a whopping 10,000 trees), replete with two huge polytunnels (plastic-sheeted greenhouse quonset huts). Andrew and friends had just put the plastic on the second polytunnel today--Julie was thrilled.

Julie's a TTOUCH practitioner for camelids (llamas and alpacas), and she and Andrew run the farm, grow most of their own food (fruits, berries, vegetables, greens), raise alpacas, make their own cheese and yogurt, and have all manner of critters around the place--rabbits, three llamas, alpacas, goats, guinea pigs, cats, ponies, dogs, chickens, probably others.

Their farm is a WWOOF member: WorldwWide Opportunities for Organic Farming. WWOOF hooks up people who own farms or ranches with people who want to work on them for room and board. Three WWOOFers John, Imiko, and Manuela, are at Carthvean on various schedules to help out. I met all three of them while I was here.

I woke at 7 Monday morning, bathed in a clawfoot tub, and had a breakfast of homemade muesli with fresh goat's milk, homegrown strawberries, and apples. John came in carrying seven eggs, this morning's generous output from the Muscovies in the coop.

The weather continues to be very hot and sunny, with a breeze at the top of hill. My laundry on the line dried in very short time.

Alpaca shearing was to start at 10a, but first we had to get the critters into the shearing barn--girls this morning, then the boys after lunch.

Julie, Imoko, and I herded the girls from the pasture using TTOUCH wands, a herding tape, and voice. There were thirteen alpacas in this group. They shuffled along the field in a great bleating, scrambling mass of round woolly bodies and long woolly necks, directed and, in some cases blocked, by our moving barricade of herding tape. As they reached the narrower wooded lane, they hustled and balked and shoved and walked at our insistence, eventually jamming up at the open doorway to the work barn.




The barn has concrete floors and moveable partitions so corrals can be resized and areas closed off to direct the animals through the shearing process. Julie clucked, cajoled, and shoved them into the main holding area, Colin the shearer arrived, and we all got to work--Julie, Imiko, another friend of Julie's, Colin, and me.



Shearing alpacas is different from shearing sheep. Alpacas are big, strong, feisty, and all flailing limbs and neck when you get them down. You can't just pin them to the ground like you can with a sheep.

Instead, the shearer must lift and bring the alpaca to the floor, truss it by forefeet and hind feet to a pulleyed stretcher system, and flip the animal over twice during shearing to reach all parts of its body for the fleece. Colin, well muscled and well skilled, did all this wrestling and shearing with expert maneuvers and a predictable rhythm that made it very easy to know where to be next to support him.

After photographing the first shearing, I helped with the rest, holding down the alpaca’s head to keep it from squirming, and doing TTOUCH on its ears to help calm it. Some of them screamed or whistled or bleated with astonishing shrill throughout the whole process, while others lay submissive and quiet until they were released, looking like fuzzy miniature giraffes, barely ten minutes later.


The deep drone of the clippers motor, the constant calling from those still in the holding pens, the screeches of the one being shorn--every sound bounced off the concrete walls, and my ears were ringing by the time all twenty of the alpacas were done. (The seven boys didn't want to come in for their turn in the shearing barn--they'd seen what the girls looked like when we herded the boys past their fields.)

By the end of they day, we'd collected bags and bags of alpaca wool. White, brown, fawn, caramel, black--I'd never known they came in such colorful variety. We took two qualities of fleece from each alpaca--first quality from the "blanket" (back, sides, upper flanks), and second quality from legs, belly, neck, chest, head. The textures and lengths also varied widely. Long and crinkly is best, according to Julie, for its elasticity.

Duties done, Andrew later drove me to the Criggan Mill cottages in Mullion and took Manuela, another WWOOFer I met at the farm, to her holiday hotel a few miles away.


The day had been hot, and although the cabin's windows were open, the cottage smelled a bit musty. And, ohmigod, I’ve traveled back in time—the whole place is decorated in 1960s orange, brown, and yellow, big stipes, and funky lamps. It's sunny, though, with a stream at the back behind an embankment and wood pigeons and magpies sharing the bushes.


I pay for electricity from a meter box that looks like it was built in the 1930s. The place has a kitchen, so I can cook my own meals for the week--yay.

The cabins are at the bottom of a hill in a fold of valley; I can't see the coast from here; it's 200 yards down the road. The landlady was brusque, as if she doesn't like her job today.

Cornwall has fields, hedgerows, gorse, heathlands, and--surprising to see--Monterey pines, which were imported by the Victorians. The pines do very well in this windy coastal area, just as they do in northern California. They've been here so long, though, that they're dying off of old age, and the government wants people to plant more. Andrew and Julie have planted about 50 on their land.

I had dinner at Mullion Cove Hotel, just up the hill from the cabin toward the coast. It has a spectacular ocean view. The evening was warm, so I dined outside on mushroom risotto and garlic bread at an umbrella-covered picnic table. The bread was hot and buttery and garlicky--a big, fat french roll sliced in half. I munched most of one piece before starting my meal. The waiter had forgotten my cutlery, and I went in to get it, leaving my food behind. I returned to several people all talking at me from nearby tables.

"We tried to stop him, love, but he was off quick as a wink."

I looked over. The other half of my luscious garlic bread was gone--nicked in all its melted garlicky butter crispy glory by an opportunistic seagull. Dang. And I'd saved the best piece for last, too.

The gull made short work of his catch, entertaining us all with how quickly he swallowed it, and practically whole. By the time I got out my camera, he was downing the last hunk.

"What wine are you drinking there?" one of my fellow diners asked. "He'll be comin' back for that next."

I laughed, finished my meal, and took the last of my white wine across the street to the cliff edge to watch the planet roll away from the last fifteen minutes of sunlight. The sky gave a burst of pink light after the sun was gone, like a little explosion of color.

I toasted the dayfall, ordered a takeaway dessert of cheese and biscuits to have for lunch this week, and toted my leftovers home to my 1960s cabin to enjoy a comfortable year 2000 bed.

TTEAM Week, and Dinner with a Lord and Lady

The TTEAM training was held by Edie Jane Eaton (leftmost in this photo), a Tellington Touch trainer whom I've had the good fortune to learn from twice before for the TTOUCH companion animal work. Our group has about 15 women (why is it that men don't get involved with this challenging, peaceful, intuitive work?). TTEAM is equine based, although many of the principles transfer to work with other animals.

We spent the week alternating classroom time, demo time, and hands-on time with the many horses and two knee-high donkeys on the farm.

This course, I didn't take as many notes as I have in the past. My learning energy was more tuned to taking things in without trying extra hard to study and perfect them. As this is my fifth TT-related training, I was feeling anchored in the basics, and just soaked in the new stuff as introduction that I can build on later.


It feels different to not stress out as a student, not try to catch every word and to be perfect in everything from the get-go. I like this style of learning. I would have made a good Socratic student, I think. Certainly this trip is its own opportunity for peripatetic learning.

Sunny, sunny all week. Got a farmer's tan, plus a little bit of burn on my shoulders and neck when I jumped at the chance to wear a tank top for the first time in what feels like a year. Am glad I changed my TT training session from the week before to this one. The week before it was rain, rain, rain for all five days. They could barely go outside to do anything. This week has been sun, sun, sun, and everyone is in a very good mood.


Aside from actually working with the animals, the best parts of the training, as usual, were the hands-on demos, where we got to pair off and play the parts of the horses and people as we practiced things like quick-release knots, special leading and tying techniques with ropes and wands, and how pressure on bridles work.

For the latter, Edie Jane had each of us wear a bridle on our head and hold the bit in our hands while someone else worked the reins. I was astonished that the pressure was so much on the top of the head instead of the bit. Anyone watching from the outside would have thought we were into some bizarre form of S&M.


We also got some chances to ride before, during, and after we did TTouches on the horses. TTEAM helps horses become balanced emotionally, physically, and mentally, so they're more prepared to meet situations with less fear. Part of the work can be teaching the horse to be ridden without a bridle. Riders use a bit of stiff rope looped around the horse's neck at the chest to steer and halt the horse.

A few of the students had brought their own animals to work with. I was surprised at how little time it took to get the horses willing and able to respond to this kind of riding and direction. The horses loved the freedom of movement, and everything was easy and gentle and step-by-step for training both the animal and people in how to go bridleless.


As usual at these sessions, everyone I met there was delightful to get to know, and we all bonded in various ways over the five days. Several women invited me to drop in on them if my travels take me to their regions of the UK. Even if I don't make it to their areas, I feel happy that I actually know people here, and that could call on them for help or information in a pinch.

My plans for next week are to be in Cornwall for seven days. I booked a cabin on the Lizard Peninsula, which both Julie and Erica, TTEAM participants, highly recommended as The Place To Go in Cornwall. I used the Ramblers listing book that Norman loaned me to find a self-catering cabin in Mullion, which, it turns out, isn't very far from where Julie lives.

Friday night I had dinner with David and Lisa at The Butchers Arms. I started with drinks with a few of the TTEAM gals at the back grassy area of the pub, where we nearly tipped the picnic bench over when everyone on one side of the table got up at the same time and we on the other side were still sitting down. Drinks slid, we all screeched, and we barely saved the whole table from going over backwards. We were still laughing minutes afterward.


David and Lisa, self-proclaimed "Lord and Lady of Farmborough," treated me to supper at The Butchers Arms. We laughed and shared stories of Londoners with wacky haircuts who charge for photos, US travel and Los Angeles, American vs. British English, pets and horses, and Halloween costumes--especially the one Lisa once made from a bin liner (trash bag) that, she claims, is the foundation of every good halloween costume.

David and Lisa live in Farmborough which, yes, is large enough to have a small grocer that's also the post office. They're only a block or so from the pub, and they walked me to my B&B with their new yellow labrador puppy, Reggie, who made a point of checking every doggie mail stop on the way.


Our final TTEAM dinner was Saturday at The Hunters Rest. These evenings are always bittersweet for me--acknowledging new friends and a great week, and knowing we're going to say goodbye the next day. Learned some new Sudoku tricks from Edie Jane by playing the game on Perry over dessert, which was fun.

Our TTEAM week ended on Sunday, and Julie (the one being led through the labyrinth in the photo above) offered to drive me to Cornwall and have me stay overnight at her farm, then to take me to my cabin the next day. She's shearing alpacas on Monday, and I get to help.

Walking to Farmborough

My lodging for this week is like a little apartment set off from the main house, and is the first "en suite" place I've stayed at--bathroom in the room, instead of somewhere down a hall. Come to think of it, it's the first lodging that hasn't been up three flights of stairs...a welcome change after hauling my full pack for 5+ miles today. My legs are going to rival those of Hercules by the time I get done with this trip.


Dinner tonight is per force very light--an apricot Cliff bar and lapsong suchong tea, since the one pub in this hamlet is closed for the holiday and I haven't yet found the local grocer (presuming there is one...this place is pretty small). The view from my B&B window overlooks pasture and the town.

I've spent much of the day getting here by bus from the Bath train station to a spot at the edge of town called South Down, then walking about 5 miles through Englishcombe and Priston to Farmborough. Priston had a pub, where I ate a big ploughman's lunch (having also scarfed down a large traditional English breakfast at the YMCA in Bath in preparation for the walk).


I'm finding that a village, while on a map, doesn't necessarily mean anything more than a few houses. At Englishcombe, a tall gray-haired, ponytailed fellow was in the driveway of his house at a crossroads. When I asked him for directions to the village center, he grinned and said "This is it." We chatted and immediately found common ground--we're both doing the Coast to Coast walk: he in June and I in July. He had retired last year and done the entire Southwest Coast walk--all 1200 miles of it--in spates. Took him 4 months of walking.

At the Ring o' Bells pub in Priston, I met a young family from Farmborough--David, Lisa, and their daughter Amelia--who live near Tilley Farm, where I'll be on the TTEAM training this week. They'd biked down the two miles from Farmborough to take advantage of the mostly rainless, sometimes sunny, primarily fair weather today. They've invited me to dinner at the local pub, The Butchers Arms, sometime this week. We exchanged phone numbers so we can connect.


Walking the backroads of Britain offers lovely views in between miles and miles of hedgerows that are too tall to see over, even from a car. The breaks in the rows indicate either a crossroads, a gate for farm equipment to mow the fields, or an entrance to a farm or animal field.


Country roads here are very narrow, no painted lines to mark them as two lanes. They seem built wide enough for one car, yet somehow two cars are always able to pass. Even a bus and a lorry can do it...very very carefully, and not without some nasty-sounding scrapes from the flail-cut blackberry stubs in the hedgerows.


When I can't duck into a bit of a hollow on side of the road, I crush into the hedgerow to avoid getting hit. Most drivers know to be on the lookout for walkers and opposing traffic, though, and they give me lots of space.

Playing Tourist in Bath

Spent much of today, Sunday, with Sarah, a gal from Melbourne, Australia, who's living and working in London and takes weekend trips all over UK and Europe. We did the "touristy" things today, which is much more fun with a friend.


These included the Roman Bath House self-guided tour, which was much better than the guided tour they offered ten years ago. They've got numbered stations that are keyed to audio descriptions of what you're looking at. The sound effects of water and background voices and music really makes it easy to picture people using the spa in the old days. The mosaics they've recovered are quite lovely, although there's very little of it on display. I don't know if that's because there's so little available, or if they just didn't put it all out. The water's green with algae because the building has no roof and it's exposed to the sun. It's quite a pretty green, however, and the water is very warm.

After a lunch near the Royal Theatre in which we shared a toffee-drenched cake with clotted cream, we also took the Costume Museum self-guided tour (more interesting than I expected, and lots of giggles trying on the corsets).

We walked to Royal Crescent and then toured House #1 on the Crescent, which I didn't think was worth the £5 entrance fee.

Flagging by now, we took a sustenance break near the abbey in a lower courtyard off of York St. It was 5:30 by now, and we were the last diners to be seated. We opted for aubergine and tomato soup instead of tea and scones.

We parted for the rest of the day, whereupon I headed for the town's best Internet cafe, the one nearest the train depot. The workers here really know their internet stuff, and went an extra mile to help me load the applications I needed onto Perry. I checked a few touring websites including www.goodleaf.co.uk, which does tree climbing on the Isle of Wight, and went online and found my Sudoku unlock code--yay, I can play again! My final task was to walk around the block to scope out the bus stop I need to go to on Monday.

I took a supper of my picnic leftovers in the Y's dining room with Sarah. We split my last two Minerva chocolates, including the rose violet one. It was like eating a sugared sachet; half a piece was plenty.


Did up my scrapbook through Bath--happy to get that done. I still need to blog. I'm feeling the desire to do that, and looking forward to it this week.

I have discovered that I'm supposed to spend about a week in one place along the southern coast in Cornwall. Need to find the lodging for that--a cabin or something to let.

I'm feeling a little worried about tomorrow's walk, and aware after talking with Sarah that it's time for me to let go of inadequacies about how I choose to travel and live on the road. I am ready to release comparisons to my mom and her love for venues that, frankly, bore my spirit as much as they feed hers. I need to follow my own intuition and guidance about what is right for me. Hmmm. Scare's gone for now.

Inner Workings

Up today at 6:30, qi gong, shower, and breakfast--finally--of eggs, ham, hash browns, fried toast, stewed tomatoes. Feeling very fortified.

I packed up my stuff to move to the 14-girl dorm room for the weekend. Seven bunk beds; I snagged the bottom bunk in a corner near the window. I wonder whether I'll be the den mother of the group. There are older-than-I women at the Y, but they seem to be in singles rooms.

I walked most of the morning after breakfast, heading for the bus station and taking a wrong turn in the area of North Bridge. Ended up south of the Avon in Widcombe. I made my way back mostly by following my nose. Checked into which bus to take on Monday to start my walk to Farmborough. Am hoping for dry weather for the walk. And that my back and feet hold up carrying all my gear.

I bought a semi-autobiographical book about Audrey Hepburn last night (a slim volume full of her own quotes), and found another reference to her today in a thrift shop--a VHS set of her movies. I've been open to guidance on life intentions. Not clear what to make of these signs right now.

Walked toward the Crescent again today on the way to the Widcombe open artists' studios and wandered in and out of a few shops, especially art galleries. So many marvelous paintings and statues and cards and wall hangings to buy. So little space to put them in now.

I feel sad, a little, to not be buying art things--nowhere to put them but into storage now that Whimsor's out of my life. And happy to not be acquiring more stuff. And growing more aware that I'm becoming less attached to the stuff I still have at home. And feeling curious about how we humans are always creating more stuff to put onto store shelves.

Stuff, stuff, stuff. All of this stuff we create will go somewhere else on the planet--onto people's walls and floors and tabletops, into galleries, to thrift stores, antique stores, museums perhaps, into a landfill at some time in the future. Passed down through wills or family lines or the need to pawn for cash. Maybe even be assessed at some remake of the Antique Road Show, Year 2237.

Stuff. Lots of it. We build, craft, paint, dismantle, rearrange, regurgitate, recycle, refresh all in the natural progression of creating, marketing, selling, taking home, dragging along, moving along.

How would this planet be different if people went to each other and asked to have something they liked or needed made, instead of people making lots of something and then trying to convince others why they should have it?

Would "industry" gain a deeper meaing of being fully absorbed in the act of creation, in being more present to that which we are making because we personally know the one who will use it? Would love be poured more readily into the product? Would we pause a bit longer when the work was done, gain more free time to live instead of work, to be with each other, to be still without needing to explain why we are idle in between bouts of production?

Factories could still produce, but by fulfilling demand and special orders, not by glutting the world with supply, and then trying to generate demand for the overproduction. Would such an economy collapse or thrive? Would it bring social imbalance or greater connection? Would it feed a sense of abundance or continue the sense of scarcity that underlies our current economic choices?

How did I get off on that topic? A clarity for myself: I don't want to produce stuff for a living. I don't want to create art in a form that sits on a shelf or that hangs on a wall. Let others who have such skill create them. I would like to make art that people can walk around, be organically part of, that lives lightly on the planet. That the planet can take back easily if needed.

I am sitting and writing all this right now at the Bath Ales House for lunch, which may be coming shortly. Meals arrive very leisurely in a pub. Good, once you get to know it that way. Not so good if you're on a deadline.

It's funny. I am here in Bath and could, despite the many accents and uniquely aged buildings around me, be just about anywhere else in the world, the scenes are so universal.

Small parties of people cluster around tables not two feet round. Two mates, twenty- or thirty-somethings, dressed in jeans and T-shirts work on pints of beer. A group of five chatters in French in a corner at my right, laughing, interrupting each other, sharing the minutiae of their lives.

A server walks by, and the floorboards give beneath the wooden stool I sit on. How many feet have these planks yielded to over the years? To what myriad collection of heels and soles and body weights?

A couple in their 20s sits at their small round table at my left. She is blonde, in jeans and aqua jacket and pumps, a foot propped on the rung of the empty stool next to her at the table. He leans onto the tabletop as they talk. He is brunette, in black jeans, soiled trainers, an untucked shirt with rolled up sleeves and a hair style that stands up in a cock's crown of six spikes from nape to forehead. A gal at the Y said it takes lots of gel to create that effect.

Now that makes sense to me--body art, turning your body into a canvas with hair gel or tattoo paint. I suppose we all do this with our wardrobes--turn our bodies into a canvas each time we dress. Saw a woman my first day here who was a splash of red and oranges and hot pink and chartreuse combined in garishly mismatched patterns of jacket, shirt, skirt, leggings, and a shock of red hair, all under an umbrella of equally brilliant hues and pattern. She pulled it off. I would look like a dork.

My travels are not about touring. I came to Britain to reclaim my vision. I need a place to sit and think. A comfortable place, with food and bed and room to write in and spaces to walk in. A place without the obligation to tour, to shop, to be out, to be among people. Even the effort of meeting people feels like a chore today. Meeting people, being outgoing is not my life's work right now. I came here to meet with my Self. Or, rather, my Self called me here to meet.

Napped back at my room after a game attempt to hook into the local music scene at the Orange Spiegaltent this afternoon. Left after one song. Couldn't take the amps, and the brass was too shrill in the tiny space. Trying too much to like what other folks seem to like. Trying it on and finding it doesn't fit.

Remembering A. Hepburn's words, "Know who you are and who you are not." right now, I would add, "Be OK with both of them."